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Name: blueirisrain
Country: United States
State: Michigan
Birthday: 4/13/1984
Gender: Female


Interests: drawing, cooking, SHopping(believe it or not), playing badminton, hanging out at m.u. (no i am just kidding)
Expertise: hmm~, wasting time (ya like now), procrasinating, eating & cooking, drawing random stuff on notebooks (cute stuff mostly)
Occupation: Student
Industry: Engineering


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Member Since: 2/6/2003

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Sunday, March 18, 2007

i guess ppl dont write xanga anymore nowadays.. but anyways....... i was just reading over some old entries i have written.. it was amazing to find out what i was thinking back then and how much /little things have changed . maybe i should write more, so at least i have a record of things going on in my life.

Good news:
-70 degree in california. my parents were "mad" when i told them i was wearing short sleeves and flipflops
- i am officially someone's bridesmaid =) anddddd that someone is gonna be in LA beginning september this year for at least 1.5 years...
- going to visit my loving and carying bf in phili in about a week and ahalf (a side note: phili and tianjin r sister cities )!! andddd looking forward to trips to asia this summer =)

with all the gooood stuff to look forward to, i guess i need to work on research :-p today i was just thinking why research is hard.. i mean being an engineer could just have been equally demanding, especially if you are on a project with tight deadlines.. but man, research can just be soooo soooo soooo depressing. sometimes i cry when i saw the SEM pictures of my device knowing the past xxx hours in the microlab didnt result in anything. on the plus side, i love being around ppl who have dreams - everyone came here for a dream thinking what we do and what we create is going to make the wolrd a better place. ppl might think us as naive; but i think us as inspirational.

i really envy friends who are working and got job offers, friends who r engaged or already married; its like family & career, i have accomplishments in nonee.. sigh~


Monday, October 16, 2006

a boring school entry

i guess i never wrote an entry about graduate school research...  what i realize in the past month has been its soooo easy for your hard work of 1 month or a few months to go down the drain, especially at the time of deadline coming up.. working in the microlab sucks 


Saturday, October 07, 2006

home

today during bible study, one of the discussion questions was "if  only I can ______,  I would be so happy".. The guys in my group were like "if only I can have a girlfriend, I would be so happy".. i thought its kinda funny, but then again, guys are more closed up than girls, maybe they need someone to share their happiness, their success, their pain, their ambition, their dream, etc..

I actually I wish if only I can go home every weekend like my roommate could, I would be so happy. At least flying to chicago is pretty cheap.. when i went home 2 weeks ago, i felt like thats the best wkend i ever spent for the longest time, and of course i didnt want to come back to the life of not sleeping and working in the lab 15 hours straight soaking up chemicals.

today i read a "journal" a lady wrote about her going to the country side of szechuan, the part that is so secluded and poor, bringing books and supplies for those children so they can continue schooling. I know some friends who are sponsoring children in china now; for 80 - 100 dollars per year which is prolly the cost of meals for two weeks, we could actually help those kids finish school so that they could walk out of their secluded village and town that is so lost in space and later bringing modern life and technology back to the place they grew up in.

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甄獎記淚

大偉/核桃溪

設在舊金山灣區的“樹華教育基金會”成立於1995年,組織者為一些有心人士,宗旨在以直審直播獎學金的方式,幫助中國邊遠地區瀕臨輟學的清寒優秀子弟, 得以完成中學基礎教育,並期望他們將其所學,回饋鄉里,改變中國農村貧困落後的面貌。

基金會結合在美國關心中國教育的善心朋友,完全依靠義務工作,推展,維持會務運行,透過中國邊遠地區教職人員之推薦,直接接受學齡初一到高三的學生提出申請 ,由此間基金會義工逐一審評,發放獎學金。幾年以來,從無到有,至今已有逾1500名學生正接受基金會之直接撥匯獎學金,並以每年約350名新學生加入之速度成長, 擴大。基金會不但沒有分毫的人事費用開支,就連一應經常性的辦公費用,也另開款源,單獨籌措,以達到捐助人每年提供之獎學金百分之百的直接交到被獎助學生手中,支應其繼續求學之需。

基金會執事之一系我多年所尊敬的好友,知我有閒,徵召我參與今年度獎學金甄選工作。我欣然接受之後,因整個五月赴中國旅遊,六月初旬,一回到美國, 立刻向基金會報到, 領得約二百份申請文件, 進行復審, 為達成兩個星期完卷之目標,得基金會許可, “轉包”一半給老友德隆望重的魏需遜先生協力, 得以如時完工,並於日前向基金會復命。

審閱一百多份卷子倒是不難, 但需遜兄與我, 幾乎是揮淚完成的。今年送審的申請, 包括台灣地區三十餘件在內, 共逾780份, 限於有限資源, 不可能全部滿足,基金會計劃中只能錄取370名, 約佔45%, 也就是略過半數的申請必得忍痛遺珠。以我個人負擔閱卷的百八十份卷子言, 幾乎個個孩子都值得支援﹑獎助, 念及將有一半申請得不到獎助, 並極可能因之而導致這些孩子被迫終止學業, 怎不生“安的廣廈千萬宇”之嘆啊﹗

學生送審文件,除需詳填樹華統一格式申請表外, 還需兩位教師推薦信, 申請人自撰之自我介紹以及一篇文章, 再附以成績證明; 而審核要件則以家境清貧程度為首, 兼及學生德﹑智﹑體﹑群諸育之表現,和其文字﹑名次等條件,並為選擇。我個人所分配之申請集中在陝西﹑雲南﹑貴州等省份,皆屬十四﹑五歲初一學生。 基本上都是農家子弟,其全家收入都年不滿千,其窮可知。加以農村家庭計劃要求較寬鬆,每戶多不止一個子女,往往還上有高齡祖父母,一家生計, 端賴父母親在薄田上終年操作。中國農人生產效益原極微弱﹐常年勞動超負,又得不到什麼營養,中年人多已未老先衰,更兼抗災乏力,偶有意外,則傷殘﹑致死, 屢見不鮮。國家社會照顧不及,公安保健條件極差,造成破碎家庭,單親承重,仰不足事父母,俯不及蓄子女者,比比皆是。只能靠中華民族艱苦卓絕之傳統,四方告貸, 到處張羅,仍堅持地不肯放棄子女之學業,已足感人。而學生又能體認苦境,努力奮鬥,在學業上力爭上游,名列前茅,又品行端正,積極進取,志向遠大。每讀一卷, 輒心酸不已﹗

雲南一位男同學, 因繳不起每星期10元的生活費,只能走讀.每天天不亮就揣上兩個雜糧餅子上路。步行三,四個小時山路上學。下課走回家已是天黑了。 只為省這每周折合1元2角美元的伙食錢。

陝西一位女同學,因家里太窮,母親忍受不了,棄家而去,爺爺又跌傷成殘,父親氣急攻心,已經半瘋,她與弟弟二人在學,所有生計,全靠六十多歲的奶奶支撐, 老人還要照料一殘一瘋的兩個男人,其悲慘無助難以想像。

同在陝西的另一位女生,作文是[一件難忘的事],她寫道:某天上學途中,跟一群路人擁看機個警察惡狠狠地取締無照攤販,擠到前列,才發現原來是自己的母親。 跑掉了一只鞋,絆倒在地,苦苦哀求警員而不果,被沒收了兩擔菜,一條扁擔,一杆秤,她抱著母親大哭,母親反而安慰孩子,叫她快去上學,以免遲到。

貴州某一藏族男孩,為了討領每周10元生活費,周末要走七,八個小時山路回家,卻張不開口向一籌莫展的父親要錢,一連三個星期,次次白跑,第四個周末, 已經沒有勇氣回家了。不料大雨滂沱中,体弱多病,身負重擔的父親找來學校。他寫道:[大雨中,混身濕透的父親,小心翼翼地由貼身小褂口袋中,掏出一些票子, 最大額也僅有一張是五元,其余都是五角,一角的小票,我的眼淚奪眶而出,心中想到朱自清的《背影》……]

這些孩子,在他們六,七十人的班上,不是第一,就是第二,個個品學兼優,又能急公好義,愛護集體,幫助同學,在功課之外,還撿柴餵豬,協助家計,照應老小。 相對我們美國的孩子們,最大困難是不知道這周休假是該去滑雪,還是上迪士尼樂園。真不知道這些苦孩子由何處來的動力,耐心,堅毅不拔地在油燈下,泥地上, 孜孜不倦做完功課,再飢渴地閱讀借來不易的課外讀物。就是他們每天面臨斷炊之虞,瀕臨輟學困境時,居然心無旁騖,勇猛進取,努力向學,力爭上游。他們的自傳, 告訴我們,他們最大的心願,就是繼續完成學業,作一個鄉村教師,護士,醫生,科學家,發明家,宇航員……回饋家鄉,報效祖國。 想到我們要在這眾多可愛的孩子里,刷掉一半的申請,打破一半的美夢,真是情何以堪!

樹華簡介說:[……中國政府及有關部門,在普及初等教育方面,盡了很大努力,但對幅員遼闊,人口眾多的中國來說, 只靠政府投入的教育資源是遠遠不夠的,這件巨大的工程需要海內外中華兒女赤誠與熱情,同心協力……]

親愛的讀者,作為赤誠與熱情的中華兒女,您一定也想為此一巨大工程盡一分力量。您一定也想以一些有限之財力,人力,幫助改變一個潛力無窮的孩子的一生吧! 邀請您與樹華基金會聯絡,找到您的貢獻之道。


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Sunday, September 17, 2006

peony pavilion

tonight i got to watch the one of the most amazing piece of performing art i have seen: the peony pavilion - kunqu (kun opera) from suzhou china, at berkeley =) (having watched the ballet "raise the red lattern" & play "tea house", i guess i am really thankful for being here, and for the uc's theatre project with asia in bringing all these amazing performers to the states)


its actually 9 hours long, divided into 3 parts, playing 3 consecutive days.. i went to see the 2nd part today w/ my roommate.. after watching it, we regret not getting tickets for 3 parts, but again, we dont have that much time this wkend unfortunately


Monday, July 31, 2006



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